Weapon Mouth

The title of this post is the latest name I have for my (fake) band. Has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

Work is better. That is all on that front.

Jess V 1.0 and her sister are coming over, tonight. We're gonna have a crazy-ass 3-way. Not really. But that would be fun, wouldn't it?

I'm gonna miss the Halloween party. I'm gonna be gone for my birthday. I'm hating life.

So, that's about it.

Here's something that should sum up my whole life of relationships. I'm sure it shouldn't come as a shock to some.


God Lives Underwater

Scared

I'm scared of you
There's nothing I can do
No sense in wasting time
I want you out of my mind

You make me feel unhappy
I wish you weren't real
You only make me unhappy
And I can't deal
With it

I never wanted you
But I'm afraid it's true
You're gonna catch me by surprise
I hope there's time to realize

You make me feel unhappy
I wish you weren't real
You only make me unhappy
And I can't deal
With it

The Road

Just feeling this song is me, today.


The Road
by Hednoize


Driving somewhere
Out of nowhere
Speed away

A highway for my home
I was born to wonder
To heed the way

Anyway it goes
I can roll
The wheels are turning

Leave behind
The ties that bind
And go my own way

I won’t look back

………….

Someday
If I go far enough
Over the road
I’ll be a world away

I’ve been to Hell and back
I’ll take a Heaven exit, next

And I’ll fade away
Wide awake
I’m in no hurry

I look behind
And see the fire
The bridge is burning

I can’t go back

Driving somewhere
Out of nowhere

Speed away

AAAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Everybody fucking run!!!!!!!!!


Shit! Fuck! Fuck! Shit! Goddammit! Fuck! Agh! Son of a fuck!

Hey, Now!

Since getting out of jail, everthing's (Yes, I left out the "why") all fucked up. Work is crazy. I'm crazy. Everthing's just all fucked up. But I'm happy and surviving. Every day that you wake up alive is a good day.

My first kiss, Annetta, came to my show. That was interesting. Sales have been shit, but my shows have been great.

Me and Jess v 1.0 are getting along very well. Me, her and Marcus, my gay, black neighbor went to a movie on Friday. Feast is a hell of a lot of fun. Pick it up on DVD this October.

@Spawn and Quill: Burt is in it. "Not a bad question, Burt!"


Nix says: The Burt is back. He's boss Burt. Slave driver.

Kill Me

I just had to find this online. I remember this stupid-ass shit from when I was a kid. Thanks to Jess v 1.0 for having the Mario theme as her alarm on her phone.

Now you're playing with power!



I love how he almost falls over at the "big finish".

Nix says: That poor fucking guy. This was his big paycheck. That fool.

Holy Crap!

This is not a review.

I've just seen the most fan-fucking-tastic movie.

Hard Candy.

Find it. Watch it. You will not be disappointed.

Nix

I Got In An Arguement...

...With gravity and he introduced me to his friend the pavement.

It was not a good time. I tripped over a curb in the dark and smashed my face into the ground. Blacked out for a second or so.Blood was gushing out of my nose.

That was Friday and it fucked me up so bad I haven't felt half-way ok until today. Slight concussion, I suppose. My nose still hurts, but the swelling has gone down and I handled an allergy attack ok, today. My neck finally feels better, too.

So, haven't been able to really sit and type, for awhile. It was hell trying to get through my demos. And then all we had were people without jobs and full-time students.

Ah, well. At least I didn't break my neck, which was a distinct possibility.

Home on Wednesday and then off to jail. Hooray.

Nix says: Gravity made me her bitch.

I Don't Think So.

I don't need to re-think anything.

I thought it through and decided that I needed to be a fucking adult and tried to do what was right. Guess being responsible and depenable is just a bunch of bullshit.

From now on, I'm just not caring about anyone. Fuck 'em all.

Nix

Bloody Blood

Me and pavement don't get along.

I'm resigned to being a dick. I thought I did the right thing. I thought that being honest was the best way to do things. I tried to be an adult.

Hi! I'm a dick! And if doing the honest thing makes me a dick. I'm a fucking dick.

Nix

Hi! I'm A D*ck!

All Wrong by God Lives Underwater

I hate to
Break it to you
But this convenience ain't convenient anymore
Now I realize I had different eyes
Back when I thought this was a good thing

Here I am my anger and me
Temper makes it hard to see
This situation I'm in again
Everything must come to an end now
There's some things that I want to do
And I don't want to lie to you
But it still makes me go
And do the things I know
All wrong

I'll dig to
Learn about you
I'm sure I'll find you were as evil as me
We can call it even
You can let me leave then
You can leave me to my own thing

Here I am my anger and me
Temper makes it hard to see
This situation I'm in again
Everything must come to an end now
There's some things that I want to do
And I don't want to lie to you
But it still makes me go
And do the things I know
All wrong

And another. Fool

These days I'm getting older
Before my time
To say I'm getting stronger
Would be a lie
I think you're trying to break me
Seems so unreal
Don't know how to take me
Don't know how I feel
Look around you
Do you see what I see
Other people think you try to
Make a fool of me
It seems to take so long
Till anything gets done
Why do I have to lose to get things
I've never won
I'm defeated again
I see the look on your face
I've got that feeling again
My mouth has a bad taste
My hope in empty promise
Put me to shame
I know its what you wanted
I need the pain
I was gonna be someone
You held me down
Didn't want me to move on
You let me drown

I Eff Things Up....

....A lot.

I'm terrible with a phone. I didn't even call to see how my aunt was, with her surgery. I forget birthdays and shit. I just forget to do things I intend to do.

I'm going to jail, again. 3 days. Hooray.

It's a mixed blessing and I don't feel like typing it out.

Nix

Hello, Blogging Community!

I forgot why I even had this thing.

I actually started using it so I could post my feelings and opinions. I stopped doing that because I became nervous that people would actually read what was going on and get pissed off.

Know what? Fuck that.

This has been a crazy two year ride and I've loved every fucking minute of it.

Right now, I'm pissed, I'm happy and I'm crazed.

I never fucking try to hurt or use anyone and that's what I've been accused of. Sure, it's been "kinda" recanted, but it still fucking hurts to be called a dick.

I let things happen that I knew were the wrong things to do. But, because of my emotions, I let them go on.

Now I'm paying the price for having feelings.

That's all I'm gonna say about that.

Meanwhile, I'm going out to do some singin' with an old friend who makes me very happy.

Shit. I didn't even type up what I meant to. Fuck. Eventually, I guess I'll get back to using this thing the proper way.

Perhaps.

Nix

Good. Bad. I'm The Guy With The Life.

Well, I'll start with something good:

I'm top salesman, right now. I'm out-selling Tommy by $40 grand. And I don't look proffesional. So fuck off.

Life is in flux. Does that make sense? I'm dealing with changes in my life as best I can. I can only be me and be the best me I can be. I'm gonna look out for myself and try to understand other situations, as well. That's all I can do. But I know the situation I am in. That's real and what is happening, right now. That is my fucking life.

Here's something fun for all you folks: