Look, I don't wanna tick anybody off. I just want a place to express myself. If you are invited to view it, show some respect. I love you all exactly as I despise you. NixEclip err... NixEclips
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Thank You, Vast.
I've been wanting to run up mountains, scream, punch things and just tear shit up. This video, featuring the music of Vast and scenes from Equilibrium, almost gives me that satisfaction. (And if you've never heard Bill Cosby sing "Satisfaction" you're missing out.)
THEN I found a vid for a great song that makes me think the other way. We should talk this through and make this work. The vid doesn't really say, that. They went another way, but the song is fucking great. I hate love. It's totally fucked. I'm beginning to think it's not worth it. But here's a good song for you. Stereo MC's:
Quote: "Only you can make yourself happy." Um, yeah. I was pretty damn happy when I was alone. Then somebody made me even more happy. And now I'm fucking not happy being alone. Fuck off.
Here's a good song and a good vid to go along with it. It uses fractals. "In colloquial usage, a fractal is "a rough or fragmented geometric shape that can be subdivided in parts, each of which is (at least approximately) a reduced/size copy of the whole"[1]. The term was coined by Benoît Mandelbrot in 1975 and was derived from the Latin fractus meaning "broken" or "fractured"." Confused? Yeah, me too. But I used to take my video camera, plug it into the TV and then film the TV of the camera filming the TV and created fractals. I discovered that at the age of 11. This video uses an actual computer program. Enjoy, you druggies!
Here's a guy that just happened to request "friend" status on the day I was broken-up with over MySpace messaging. Heh. Nice. The song I heard when I visited his Space before adding him really spoke to me. I can't find it on YouTube, but visit his Space, he's Simon Pollitt at the bottom of my top 20 and well worth it. Support independant art! The song, This Great Day is actually playing at my MySpace. He's sending me a disc of his music, at no charge, btw, and I'd be glad to share it with those who are looking for mellow music and great vocals and lyrics. Here's a live vid. The aud/vid is a bit off (Yay, YouTube!) Visit him at http://www.simonpollitt.co.uk/ , as well. Enjoy! He's great and a really nice guy!
And for something more substantial: I found this clip of some guy talking about Rosie O'Donnel's racial comment. Good stuff.
Nix says: Getting home early. Hooray. I have so much to look forward to.
I put up almost this exact vid at somebody's MySpace with a different song. Who knows if it will see the light of day.
That was for that person, this one is for me.
It's not just a vid about love, it's about the emptiness when someone is gone. Hmm. Just really stressed, right now. So many things. My sis goes in for spinal surgery "today" (friday) and I can't be there. That's one thing. Fuck. Anyway. Here we go.
Am I dying? Is what was so wonderful gone? What's happening, right now?
So many things. Work, family, relationship. Fuck. If my dreams are any indication, it's all fucked to fucking hell. Wish I was a pill user. Would be a quiet and peaceful way to just say good-bye.
If you're interested in what the other song was (which was a better vid, btw), here's a link: www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyCWdVNsSx8 (I actually put it up on MySpace.)
Well, I have nothing to report that is of interest, so I'm putting up an extremely pointless video. I had one that was more interesting, but YouTube is down for fucking maintenance.
It's 4 minutes and 56 seconds of Asia Argento jumping about and then fucking around with the DJ equipment and just looking sexy as hell. Like I said: Pointless. But I like it.
Nix says: Asia, you'll never know me, but you're my childhood sweetheart.
Well, my new review/opinion/whatever at www.tombofanubis.com came out really well.
Just wanted to share with you a short film from someone I met through DeRex. Remember that guy? He just disappeared. But the Great Swifty is still around and here's an older short he made. It's kinda funny, yet still emotional, at the same time. Great editing, here.
Nix says: Wish I had something that good to show off.
I couldn't find a vid to go along with this, so find the song on your own. Call Heather, she prolly has it.
Here are the lyrics:
"Savior"
Until you crash Until you burn Until you lie Until you learn Until you see Until you believe Until you fight Until you fall Until the end of everything at all Until you die Until you're alive
Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care
Until you give Until you've used Until you've lost Until you lose Until you see, how could you believe? Until you've lived a thousand times Until you've seen the other side This is my chance, this is my chance
Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care
Until the truth becomes a lie Until you change, until you deny Until you believe
This is my chance, this is my chance I'll take it now because I can This is my chance, I want it now
Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care
Save me, save me, save me Save me, save me, save me I don't care
You know what! Fuck that! I think this is more to the point.
PANIC! AT THE DISCO LYRICS
"Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks"
Watch your mouth Oh, oh, oh Because your speech is slurred enough That you just might swallow your tongue I'm sure you'd want, want to give up the ghost With just a little more poise than that
Or was it God who chokes In these situations, running late? No, no, he called in Or was it God who chokes In these situations, running late? No, no, he called in
The hospice is A relaxing weekend getaway Where you're a cut above all the rest Sick and sad patients On first name basis with all the top physicians
Prescribed pills To offset the shakes To offset the pills You know you should take It a day at a time
That's when you stu-stu-stutter something profound To the support on the line And with the way you've been talking Every word gets you a step closer to hell
That's when you stu-stu-stutter something profound To the support on the line And with the way you've been talking Every word gets you a step closer to hell
Prescribed pills To offset the shakes To offset the pills You know you should take It a day at a time
Prescribed pills To offset the shakes To offset the pills You know you should take It a day at a time
I am Alone in this bed, house, and head And she never fixes this But at least she...
I am Alone, in this bedroom She never fixes this But at least she...
Prescribed pills To offset the shakes To offset the pills You know you should take It a day at a time
Prescribed pills To offset the shakes To offset the pills You know you should take It a day at a time
The hospice is A relaxing weekend getaway Where you're a cut above all the rest Sick and sad patients On first name basis with all the top physicians
Well, shit. That DM vid I put up that I thought was so fucking cool because they only used the story-boards...It was the video with out the goddamn CGI. I just found the completed vid, so I'm gonna have to put it up. It's a good song, so it's not that bad to re-post, but still... here, take it.
I still like it without all the douche-bag CGI, but it's not a bad vid.
Anyway (there's that fucking word, again.), discovered a new band that's pretty cool called Luce. Here's how it happened. John, Tony and Kathy all hated Snow Patrol. They then proceeded to hate Depeche Mode. Then they hated God Lives Underwater. Look, we're not playing music for people in their 50's. These are younguns and don't want fucking disco. John's brilliant plan was to play some hard-core shit which would most likely have curse words and alienate more mellow people. Jesus fucking christ. Finally, we had Matchbox 20 and then Kathy slid in Luce, which I really liked. So, here's a couple vids and accompanying lyrics. (The only ones I could find, easily.) I think they kinda make me think of how happy I am with Jess. My suggestion is to listen as the music plays and read the lyrics and if you feel like it, watch the vids, later. Maybe it's my hearing or the "ear buds", but I found it hard to make out the words.
Lyrics for "Good Day" by Luce
Good Day by Luce album: Well I wake up to a sky so blue With my girlfriend in the other room Got the coffee on, the pancakes done The cat's sleeping outside in the sun
The tv sings its morning blues And it’s all the same with all the news But she walks up, smiles, kisses me And says "your coffee’s done".
Then starts singing. Yeah yeah yeah She is singing.
"it’s a pretty good day. I’m lookin’ forward to tomorrow to have a pretty good day". Yeah yeah yeah
Well it’s a pretty good day I’m looking forward to tomorrow We’ll have a pretty good day Yeah we’ll have a good day.
So I lace my boots up and step outside Catch a cab because my car died And I go to work with my friend Dan Painting houses the best we can
On my way back home I try and mix it up Walk halfway then take a bus And as it pulls up and the doors open I hear the bus driver say step up please
Step up. And I’m singing Yeah yeah yeah And I’m singing yeah yeah yeah yeah Some guy looks over and says ‘how ya doin’?’
I say Well it’s a pretty good day I’m looking forward to tomorrow I’ll have a pretty good day Yeah yeah yeah
Well it’s a pretty good day I’m looking forward to tomorrow I’ll have a pretty good day Yeah I’ll have a good day
And through the window There’s a whole world And I’m watching all the people All the faces and the places I have yet to go
And the sunshine now it’s fading And my girlfriend she is waiting And I bet that she’s outside Sleeping in the shade
Cause it’s a pretty good day I’m looking forward to tomorrow I’ll have a pretty good day Yeah yeah yeah
Well it’s a pretty good day I’m looking forward to tomorrow I’ll have a pretty good day Yeah, I’ll have a good day
It’s a good day Yeah yeah It’s a good day
Nix says: Every day is a good day, when you're with me.
And here's a cute little one. It actually makes me want to get a fucking dog, and anyone that knows me, knows I'm a cat guy. This song is so damn beautiful, though. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Jess. Not to scare you, again, but I feel very strongly that there is a reason we're together, again. And I could listen to this over and over and still be a teary bitch. I love you.
Lyrics for "Buy A Dog" by Luce
had a dream it was a good dream you were there and so was I, we were so happy I did not want to open up my eyes and we were driving down a road it was a long one there were signs all over saying the signs said, "welcome to your life" I looked over and you were smiling you had a great big smile going then you turned to me, you turned and you said "all your life I got ur back"
so if you want to try we'll make it you and I we'll never be alone we'll buy a dog and bring him home he'll jump up on the bed we'll be the best of friends I think that we should try just picture you and I...
I had another dream I know you think how convienent but I swear it's the truth we were there, I was me and you were you, we had a good long life on this planet when we died we went to heaven and saw that god was really Elvis! anyway, our souls were in the right place our souls were in the right place..
so if you want to try well make it you and I we'll never be alone we'll buy a dog and bring him home he'll jump up on the bed we'll be the best of friends I think that we should try just picture you and I...
and we'll take him on walks with us everyday (underneath the summer sun) he can ride in the back of our car when we go away with his head outside of the window frame and his tongue out,
(Chorus)
it's a miracle that we're even here and alive let's buy a dog and bring him home.
I was left and then not left. Hmm. That doesn't really sound like a lot, but it was pretty devestating to me.
I appreciate everyone taking the time to deal with my emotional breakdown and doing their best to help me through that. Hopefully, all can be worked out with words and understanding. And most importantly, the knowledge that we both love eachother. I feel strongly that this can work and it is what I want in my life.
Anyway, (I say that a fucking lot, don't I?) I got a double shot of the "Nix Specialty". Both Depeche Mode tunes from their latest album, Playing The Angel, which is a nice return to form for them. Here's one for the ladies. I think it's a pretty cool idea to not totally do the CGI and just have the story-boards. Nice.
And here's another with a political theme, for my buddy, Quill. Dude, you're gonna love this fucker. Let me know if it actually plays all the way, I'm having issues with my blogger.
Ok, and here's something retarded, 'cuz I'm in a political mood, after that genius.
That's all, for now. Don't expect a new review at www.tombofanubis.com from me, but check out what the other guys have for you.
Wow, my apartment is pretty fucking empty. Yeah, it's still crammed to the gills with movies and clothes and shit, but damn...
I guess I've learned my lesson. Actually, I don't know what lesson that would be. All I know is that I lost myself in someone else and assumed that we were mutually happy. Boy, was I fucking wrong.
Next time, if there is one, I'm totally playing the "dick" card and not giving a shit. I'm just gonna do what I want and fuck what my companion wants or needs. Seems that chicks like assholes. I can act like an asshole. I'm a very good actor.
Anyway, Bill Hicks is fucking hilarious. I just picked up a DVD of his. Forgot how cool he was. Another great entertainer that died on us.
I had a post up here but took it down, because it was no longer relevant. Amazing what can happen in the span of 3 hours. And then Blogger is forcing me to use their new fucking shit. Fuck those fucking assholes up their fucking asses.
Anway, since we're on a new thingie and things have changed, thought I'd put up a few rules:
RULES FOR BEING IN MY LIFE: 1) If you have something worth saying, fucking say it. 2) I don't play the "20 Questions" game. 3) I am often not in the 'Lou. Deal with it. 4) I'm emotional. Again, deal with it or find some douche-bag that doesn't give a fuck about you. 5) I like to drink. And if you do, as well, you have nothing to bitch about. 6) Appreciate what I have to offer you. Sure, it may not be money and it may not be a lot of time, but don't fuck me over when I've got it to share. 7) I'm gonna fuck your mom.
Ok, that last part is bullshit, but I think it sounds funny.
God Lives Underwater
23
I'm breathing the air the air i always breathe i don't have a lot but i want someone to share it with me i really only want a few things they've all been taken away what does the next life bring i just want to feel o.k. i'm searching forever for someone or something i want to be high and i want someone to love me i spent 23 years now trying to get by other people make it day to day i still wonder why i only really had a few things they've all turned to tears one tried to kill me the other kept me here i'm still here
Oh, and I've been doing some re-modeling (sp?). Got a nice hole in my wall. And no tools needed! Amazing!
